Going Berserk??

It is almost 4 months since he treated me differently. He used to be nice and sweet though he has a very quick temper. But the second after blasting out whatever he wants to say, everything else goes back to normal. He is alike Dr Jekyll and Mr Hyde.

Indeed, I do have a high level of tolerance. But it does run out too. There have been times whereby I just wanna drop everything and leave at that instant. But I know I cannot do so, for I have my financial commitments (or is it called, "burden") to consider. I would need to secure a new one before I am able to leave him.

Each day when I wake, I would literally drag myself out of bed. The feeling of hate is there. To have to go in and face him every day. And everyone (almost everyone) knows that when this happens, it is time for you to leave your current and look for a new one. I cannot wait till the weekends come by. That would be where I am able to relax and enjoy the time spent with my beloved, Prince Glendan.

I do not hate him. But I do hate the way he is treating me - the way he speaks to me. Every single word / sentence is sacastic, even deadly. Whatever I do is wrong, even though there is not wrong in it at all.

I do not know the reason for his 360 degree change in attitude towards me. We always had a good rapport. But these recent months, things have started to change. I no longer know what is he thinking nor wants to do. He, in turn, does not want to tell me what is bogging him down.

I have been asking myself this question, "What is it that I have done to make him change his heart towards me? Is it because of this ______________? Or, is it because of that ______________?" Other questions flood my mind but I have no answers for them. Unless of course, as suggested by my Prince, ask him directly. Ask him what is it that is causing such distress in the relationship. It sounds easy, but it is not. If I do ask, I would have to be ulta careful with my tone of voice, the way I phrase my sentences, the way I smile, the way I answer. What if I am able to do them, but, he takes it as a challenge of some sort? After last evenings encounter, I have decided that enough is enough. We both have enough of each other. It's not working out. No point in arguing over the issues. Admitting one's fault is also a fault in itself.

I have my Princes' support in leaving him - "Ok.. Start doing so.. As long as you're ready.." she said. I am fanning out my resources and looking into it. Hopefully lady luck would shine on me.

Who is he??

He.....

He is, my boss.....!!! What were you thinking??